sooo..it's just a few days until Christmas. I don't have one thing done. I'm just not in the mood this year. The boys are with their dad, the girl stayed with me because she has to work...I feel bad that this year is not going to be very exciting for the kids. They don't seem to mind, but I think really they do, they are just putting on a happy face for me...gotta love them.

Spring cleaning in November.

The kids have been with their dad for two days, and will be back tomorrow. I have been cleaning, cleaning, cleaning. I have been getting rid of all kinds of stuff. Stuff we don't use anymore, stuff I had been hanging on to just because it belonged to someone special at some point in time. I have no use for the things, but felt bad getting rid of them since they had been someone elses. These things are not the person, the won't bring that person back. I have wonderful memories, no point keeping the stuff. Next I'm going to tackle my books. I've enjoyed reading them all, some more than others. Some I will read again, some I would like my kids to read, but for the most part they are just taking up space. I'll keep the ones I want to pass on and the rest will go.

5 Things.....

5 Things I love....in no particular order



1. My three beautiful children.



2. Summers in Alaska.



3. Winters in the Rocky Mountains.



4. A good book.



5. A clean organized home.



5 Things I hate.



1. OKLAHOMA



2. Cleaning....kinda messes #5 above.



3. Teenager attitude.



4. Having to work on Weekends/Holidays.



5. Living so far from my sister.



5 Random Things.



1. I CANT believe I'm going to Las Vegas in 4 days!!!



2. I love running into a certain someone at Starbucks...too bad I can't figure out how to talk to him.



3. I text more with my kids than I actually talk to them face to face.



4. My job creates a great deal of confusion/frustration for me.



5. I'm happier divorced than I ever was married. If I regret deciding to get married at such a young age do I also regret the results of that marriage??

Thankful

I'm thankful that my children have all gone to their dad's house at the same time. It's unbelievable how much work I can get done around the house with them gone. I see them so little during the week that one the weekends I just want to play and hang out, I don't want to clean the house. Now that they are all gone I'm getting all kinds of stuff done, stuff that I have been putting off for months. I've cleaned my closet and have three boxes and a large garbage bag full of things to give away.


I am clueless when it comes to talking to people. I don't know how I never learned how to hold a normal conversation. I guess it will come with time, which doesn't do one much good when they are trying to get someone interested....grrr.

So...now that I'm officially single, how in the heck do I go about meeting someone...I haven't dated in over 20 years, and even then I was still in High School, wouldn't exactly call that dating. I have no clue. I don't think I possess the required social skills needed to meet someone, and yet I don't think someone is going to show up at my doorstep wanting to take me out...

tattoo time

I got a tattoo this weekend...my first, I'm excited. I've been wanting one for a long time. We had a biggest loser contest at work...winner got 360 bucks. I decided if I won I would finally get my tattoo....I won!!! Not a very good picture....I'll post better pics when I get them. My daughter and her friend went with me to document the day...Her friend has the pictures in her camera...she will be sending them soon I hope. You can't really tell from the picture, it's on the top of my right foot. It's a quilt block (duh), the hearts are for myself and the three kids...they are our birthstone colors. I love it. I already want another one....although I have no idea where or what. Maybe if I win the next round of biggest loser....

In other news....there is no other news....my life is boring!! I need to get a life I guess...how does one go about doing that??

Time Flies.....

yes...i realize I have not posted anything in over two years...at least that is what it looks like. I have in fact posted since then, of course it was at my other blog. The blog I started when I couldn't remember the name and password for this blog...yes, as a matter of fact, I am an idiot, thanks for asking. Anyway, as you can see I found this blog again. Thanks to my daughter for making it look pretty (it still needs a bit of work, but still, way cool, thanks!!) We thought we had transfered all the posts of my new blog over to this one, deleted the other, and then realized the posts hadn't moved here....oh well, we sure aren't missing anything.

I'm not even sure why I have this blog, I am not a writer, (as you can well see), I don't really have much to say, nor do I have the time, and yet here I am blogging...hehe. I had planned recording my journey from Married mom of three to divorced single mom of three but as it turns out that journey wasn't as eventful as one might think.

The ex and I actually get along better now. I think we are better as friends than we were as a married couple. We got married when we were 19 (huge mistake, I wouldn't recommend it). As we grew up we grew apart, we wanted different things out of life. The one good thing is that we have three amazing kids. They are the best thing in my life, unfortunatly I do not always make them aware of that fact. When things get rough for me they are the first to suffer. The past few months have been unusally rough around here. My job takes all my energy right now, when I get home I can't manage to do anything. I rely on the kids to do way to much, and then when it doesn't get done, or done right I take it out of them. It shouldn't be there responsiblity and yet they have had it thrust upon them. My daughter, being the oldest, has taken the brunt of my fits. She also has to listen to me complain about way to much. I hope writing about it here will get it off my chest and allow me to be a better mother to her. Time will tell.

My mother spent the weekend with us. I have a hard time with her here. She points out everything wrong in my life. As already mentioned above, my job leaves me little energy to do anything once I get home, so my house it no where near her cleanliness standards. Hell, it's not up to my standards, I just don't care right now. Last time she was here she left two days early. She was crying and saying she just couldn't be here, she just couldn't stand the way we were living and had to leave. I was looking for a repeat of that, because honestly, nothing much has changed since she was here last. I think she really struggled not to say anything this time. She went home this morning, I was so emotionally drained I couldn't face going to work. Good thing I had comp time to use before the 15th. It was a good excuse to stay home. I feel guilty staying home, but would not have gotten anything done at work. And if they had to pay me for the comp time they would have have been happy so I guess it was good for everyone.

My job is stressful in and of it self, lately this has been made worse with several changes is workers and now changes in supervisors. I keep thinking things have got to get better. The more seasoned workers laugh at me and tell my I'm overly optimistic. I hope I do not become as jaded.

Today is my youngest 12th birthday. It is hard to believe he is that old. Time has flown by. I long for the days when he would sit in my lap, let me snuggle him at bed time, when he wasn't tall enough to look me in the eye...I could go on and on. I am proud of the young man he is becoming but miss my baby!!

Well....I guess I had better go do something productive with my day....

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