Last Hoorah...

trying to plan the last day of freedom for scott...not having much luck. Can't decide what to do, where to go....

I finally spent some time with Tyler last weekend. It had been over a month since I last saw him....way to long. He took me to see a movie, we saw Non-Stop.....it was okay. I wanted to see Capt. America, but Tyler wanted to see it with his dad, which is cool.


I'm going to Shawnee on Saturday to see Zoey. I'm just going down for the day because Michael said he thinks it's too much if I bring Ellie with me and I don't have anyone to watch her if I go for the whole weekend. Scott suggested Jacob and Cathy to keep her, but not sure about that, don't think Cathy much cares for me, and would be totally awkward.  Anyway....going to Shawnee on Saturday. Can't wait to see Zoey, it's been since March 1 to see her. Much too long.


Erin is finally talking/texting to me again. I guess she got over being mad about the whole Tilly thing. Not sure I should bring it up when I'm down there this weekend or not. It doesn't sound like I'll see her or Michael much on Saturday as they both have to work. Good thing I'm not going to see them, it's Zoey all the way.


So...I've been painting......I find that I rather like it, but it sure ain't fun to do alone.  I like the swimmy.

Don't have a clue what to do about Scott. He is going to be gone for several years. Part of me wants to stand by him and make this work and part of me just wants to be done with him...Adios. Part of me wants to explore other options, other avenues in my life. This would be the perfect time for that. Perhaps...it's already started, only time will tell. Maybe what I'll figure out from all this is that the part that wants things to work is stronger than the part that wants to run. We will find out...........